I’ve gone through my entire life not talking to people about the things that matter. 26 years is a lot of conditioning. And it’s not that I don’t want to break the habit, it’s that I don’t know how. I have no idea how to start these conversations. So I post things on here, knowing you’ll read them, hoping you’ll understand how I’m feeling and talk to me about it. Then it makes everything worse and I don’t know what to do to make it ok again.