I feel like shit. Like this isn’t going to actually work out so, honestly, what’s the point in trying? Like I’m never going to be in a position to give up my day job so I should really be paying more attention to it. Like things shouldn’t be this difficult. Like I’m trying to do too much, too soon, too quickly. Like I just want to curl up into a ball and let other people sort everything out. Like I’m ultimately worthless, hopeless and helpless.