I think one of the big problems here is that I’m arming myself for a confrontation that I know is never going to happen. We’re never going to actually communicate directly in any way. This arsenal of words I’ve been stockpiling is destined to never be used in anger, but it is ready and primed and calling off the attack is easier said than done.

She doesn’t read my blog any more - thank Christ - so this is reasonably helpful as an outlet. But what I really want to do is retaliate to everything she’s aimed at me over the past 9 months, respond to the criticisms and the insults, put her right on some fundamental false assumptions and in general make damn sure she never thinks it’s acceptable to behave like she has done towards a complete stranger ever again.

I won’t ever get the chance to do that. So all I can really do is bitch on here and make snide comments go Dan, both of which I hate doing. But unfortunately doing them is better for my mental health than not doing them, so I’m not ready to stop quite yet…