December 2009
Insomnia sucks
You were never going to write poetry about me, or take photos of me posing with cigarettes and skinny jeans. I was never going to appear in one of your songs as a girl that stamped on your heart.
I never meant enough to you for that. I was just a way of passing the time, an easy introduction to a place where you didn’t know anyone. You know where to go now, and who to talk to. And you...
“I miss you at the best of times
You helped me walk that fine line”
borisjohnson:
Sometimes I just want to call people up and talk to them for hours and tell them how much I love them and appreciate them but usually it is when they are bound to be asleep. I need a 3am friend that won’t mind me waking them up in the middle of the night so I can pour my heart out.
I think we all need one of those.
- Wish you were here
I know this song should...
Retail therapy is one of the best things ever.
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2009-12-27) →
Gang Gang Dance (11)
christopher rees (8)
The Dodos (5)
Rush (3)
Spiritualized (2)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
“Suicide is in my blood, it always was
But it doesn’t evaporate in the...”
– Late of the Pier
I can't sleep
Why is no-one telling me it’s going to be ok?
I just lied to my mum. I told her that if I go back to London tomorrow there will be people who I can turn to for comfort, who will be there for me. That’s not true, everyone’s either working or away. I just can’t stay here any longer. But to be honest, I can’t really face going back either. I don’t know what to do. I feel broken.
I just want today to not have...
Family would be easier to deal with right now if I...
And neither of us said “Let’s be friends”.
Anyone fancy giving me a hug?
“Merry Christmas, I don’t love you anymore.”
Ugh, today I feel pretty rotten. I just feel so claustrophobic here - there’s nothing to do, none of my friends are here, I can’t smoke, drink when I like or snack when I like. And family get so cloying after a while. Especially family who know I’m depressed and think I want to discuss it. Tip for you - I really, really don’t. Especially not in a room full of people.
Sometimes, when I get spam emails, the text of the email is a segment from a book - I’m assuming that they want me to click on the attachment in the hope that it’s more prose, which I never do, but the emails still make me smile.
The below is an example of one such email:
“ He said, without a smile: “I said that to N, and when he had passed the two spacious chambers...
Maryann with the pot.
Elaine: [on the phone] May I speak with William, please?
Sapphire: He's not here. He's still in the bar with the band. They just got back from the radio station. Is this Maryann with the pot?... Hello?
Elaine: No, this isn't Maryann with the pot. This is Elaine... his mother. Could you please give him a message? Could you tell him to call home immediately? And could you also tell him: I know what's going on.
Sapphire: All right. But I'm just going to say this, and I'm going to stand by it. You should be really proud of him. 'Cause I know men, and I'll bet you do, too. And he respects women, and he likes women, and let's just pause and appreciate a man like that. You created him out of thin air, and you raised him right, and we're all looking out for him. He's doing a great job, and don't worry: he's still a virgin. And that's more than I've ever said to my own parents. So there you go... This is the maid speaking, by the way.
[Almost Famous]
I love this film
It does video! High Def video at that! AND it’s 15MP AND it’s DIGIC4 not DIGIC3 AND it takes SD cards so I don’t have to spend loads of money on compact flash.
It’s absolutely amazing in every possible way and I love it to pieces. So there :-p
thesefewpresidents:
Aw, man, but that’s 100 better than mine >:
fionchadd:
Tomorrow, I am probably going to buy one of...
Today Only!: Leia The Riverter At Teefury →
Nicole, why don’t your posts show up in full for me? I always get the first couple of sentences and then dots! Or are you just lazy? :-p
Hope you’ve had an awesome Christmas :-)
iheartmuseums:
$9 plus $2 shipping scores this iconic ‘Leia the Riveter’ Star Wars propaganda t-shirt from Teefury. But only for the next 15 hours, after that it’s no longer available and you’ll be…
More Albums People Forgot About
themarriageofadeadblogsing:
17: The Dresden Dolls - The Dresden Dolls
Not so deep down inside of me there’s an overweight 14 year old girl called xxrAVEN~of~solituDExx23 waiting to get out. Thankfully the only outward signs of this are a wardrobe full of corsets and stripy socks I picked up in Camden Market and an unhealthy obsession with The Dresden Dolls.
But then again, everyone should love...
Tomorrow, I am probably going to buy one of these. This makes me ridiculously excited.
If you ask how I am and I tell you I'm fine,
I’m not fine, of course I’m not, that much is obvious. But what should be equally obvious is that I do not want to discuss it. And neither should I have to. Especially when your constant probing causes tears to well up in my eyes, meaning I have to excuse myself from the room and then get a reputation for being ‘difficult’ and ‘not getting into the spirit of the...
I'm surrounded by family and I feel very, very...
13647.) The scars on my arm from when I used to...
amoldypeach:
(via blogsecret)
I hope you all have wonderful Christmases
Eat lots of chocolate, drink lots of wine, and don’t forget to watch Doctor Who!
“It’s Christmas Eve. It’s the one night of the...
Really? For me, Christmas eve is the night when we are quicker to temper, more prone to flare up over the tiniest of things and when we become the people we secretly know we are but wish we weren’t.
I am probably being overly cynical, but years of watching my mother getting so unbelievably stressed trying to create the ‘perfect family christmas’ that she renders it impossible...
I wish I knew why I break down in tears every now and then. It just comes out of nowhere, there’s not even any warning. Or there certainly wasn’t today. Getting ready to go out, been looking foward to it, felt a bit tired, sat down for 5 minutes or so, boyfriend: “are you alright?” me: *tears*
Why does this happen?
Complete emotional breakdown. What a fantastic way to start the holiday period.
Merry Christmas, everyone.
“I like to drink a lot of coffee before I go to sleep, so that I can dream fast.”
The pavements are glittering, the way they do when there’s a heavy frost on top of fluffy, powdery snow. It’s like walking on crushed diamonds. Or cocaine.